Threshold

its been so long since i last stood here.

I am exhausted & drained. Sometimes, we just need to just stand still and be quiet.

marley, is his secret name

“Did you ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many people have pictures of you, how many moments of other people’s lives we’ve been in. Were we part of someone’s life when their dream came true, or were we there when their dreams died? Did we keep trying to get in, as if we were somehow destined to be there? Or did the shot take us by surprise? Just think, you could be a big part of someone else’s life, and not even know it.”

-OTH LUCAS.S

It is beautiful just as it is, and strange enough that racial harmony stays (HAHA). Well. your heart has been beautiful and very patient. For the numerous times ive made you mad, and for the numerous times i fussed over your disappearance. Some non-common things just have to fade, knowing that there was once a picture. Might be the eventually the most beautiful thing.

Thank you, spider boy that is born in this month of July. Happy Birthday

Your fire installation

Its Singapore Arts Festival, the opening act was filled with ranging fires around of different shapes and sizes, patterns and designs at the esplanade park. which my second home (Padang) is residing beside hurhur. I saw them bulit it up, and this time i saw how after 7pm the whole park was filled with fire stands and fire flowerpots. It was so beautiful

The fire kept on running and the fire kept on burning throughout the night, when I was working just opposite.

I could simply be few streets down the road at riverwalk, keeping my fire burning by people who are the expertise at it. But yet – I was standing walking few streets away instead. Fanning and burning my very own fire – this is my challenge and this is my trusted truss i will be walking in at least for the next 5months? or maybe, more.

And i am very thankful.

it is easy to say “where was everyone?” but instead i will say, “this is my everyone”. whom have remembered to keep close to me

dear fatty, are you back yet?

ive decided to stop blog-thoughting i feel its pretty over rated and i seem to have a splash of people asking how i am when all was ever written are words after the problem. iphone has been treating me the best im loving it like how im loving er. how im loving… its a good life HURHUR.

work has been great i love what im doing now especially specially when i see what was drawn on paper, the month of hard counting and planning and ensuring come appear right into your very bright face. hmm, tinkle-thought is that why people feel drained and burned? they do so much, love so much but they dont see things happening for them? Well, we cant really see heaven too eh, but you just know it.. things are happening there for all your work.

im inspired. im inspired to go to best denki now and get my iphone some pretty clothes with my very wonderful 50 bucks best denki voucher that i won at borders staff party mua-ha-ha.

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the letter that stays for long.

 i seem to be the joke for everyone to stay happy just for that 5seconds. i tried my best to make it even though i am so drained and burned, yet i was laughed at. Is that how Jesus felt, on His way to the calvary? Ten times ten the humiliation He felt. He gave His best yet people think it was funny.

But You, Jesus. Had friends who teared with you, who helped you to carry your cross and stood the strongest by you. The number of people who laughed at you were many, but those who teared with you were few. But i knew, it was because of that few who walked with you to the calvary was what kept you going to the cross and fulfil what God has desired for You to do.

You were not alone, and because of this i know – i am not alone too.

 nothing comes out of me except sads but ive drawn, am drawing and will keep drawing.. for as long as it takes. 

thank you leader&friend & thank you goonie.

I wish people were more sensitive or i wish im more with grace.

ARGH.

i know where you come from

There are many things out there. For you to compare and ultimately making you feel like youre the most miserable person ever living on the surface of the earth. I can easily whine and complain about every single thing, but then again – choose to make the best out of whatever situation youre in.

You miss alot of occasions in your life – friends and family. But you can choose to make occasions for people around you whoever youre with. I like making people happy – I think God’s idea for people who has a sweet tooth is really to keep hearts happy. I am trying my best and I have been giving my best.

Someone told me last night at 12, “wah your pay like that you work, at the end of the day someone better appreciate you”. What went through my mind immediately was. I dont need you to appreciate me at the end of the day, i just want you to see who i am serving. And who is the one who has been keeping my heart happy even when i have one thousand and sixty three reasons not to feel so-

Honestly. I think im closer to You today, as compared to yesterday.

Move, in tonight’s meeting even though i cannot be there, i pray

Can we pretend that airplanes in the nightsky are like shooting stars?

I am tired.

Honestly i am and i dont really know how to deal with it this time. ):

I am tired of people not being able to relate to me and telling the whole world except me.  But i understand, there was a barrier to begin with- i dont blame you.

I am tired of trying to keep all of you close. But i understand, there are a multiple of things happening at this point of time.

I am tired of being afraid i cant spend more time with the 6 of you. But i understand, its my test now. I will ace it.

I am tired of keeping people positive. But i understand, the best leaders is determined by the level you influence them.

I am tired of smiling and making you all laugh. But i understandm your day compared to mine, was longer and more difficult.

I am tired of managing the biggest grandstand ever, EVER built in Singapore without a single drop of experience and im given such a big role.  But i understand, people believe in me – i know who gets the glory in the end.

I am tired of being tired. But i understand tired people change the world.

I am irritated when people dont have the rght words to say, SERIOUSLY. it makes me tick ): there are so many changes in my life from tomorrow onwards i do not know how i should hold them all. People ask me, if it is worth it. I cant answer, but i just know that I will be a good finisher and i will finish what I have started. I have been inspired the most by my workers from Blangah,India and Myanmmar. I see them even more than i see my dear friends and beloved family :/ But i love them more each day SERIOUSLY.

Well! way to go Janis Joelle

plain white tees

” A life not loved, is a life not lived”

I need to love, more.

Lifes easier w friends like these :)